27 days

I have to get myself pumped to be social.  I'm going to the coast today and I'm scared.  It's going to be a lot of people and I've forgotten how to socialize! 

I am a great person.  I'm fun to be around.  People like me.  I'm not shy.  I'm not a repulsive human being.  They wouldn't have invited me if they didn't want me there.  Maybe they just felt sorry for me.  That's kind of how I used to think all the time.  That people hung out with me because they felt sorry for me or they wanted something from me.  These people don't want anything from me, so they must feel sorry for me.