Three weeks or so . . .

Okay, so it's been a long time since I've posted.  Next week would have been my 6 months sober had I not relapsed.  I was just another 90 day wonder.  So here I sit in an Oxford house, sober because if I'm not sober then I will literally end up on the street.  I'm lonely.  I want drugs.  I want to go get drunk or high.  I want to cry.  This moment is so hard for me.  I'm praying to God that he will send me an angel, someone to care and to listen to me.  God, I'm so lonely.  Please God, send me someone to care about me.  I don't know what I want or need, but I know God will provide.  Why do I still have so much faith in God?